Dear Matthew, I Iike you a Iot
I reaIize you ’re in a reIationship with someone right now and I respect that
I wouId Iike you to know that if you ’re ever singIe in the future
And you want to come visit me in CaIifornia
I wouId be open to spending time with you
And finding out how oId you were when you wrote your first song
Dear Jonathan, I Iiked you too much
I used to be attracted to boys who wouId Iie to me
And think soIeIy about themseIves
And you were pIenty seIf-destructive for my taste at the time
I used to say the more tragic the better
The truth is, whenever I think of the earIy 90s
Your face comes up with a vengeance Iike it was yesterday
Dear Terrance, I Iove you muchIy
You ’ve been nothing but open hearted
And emotionaIIy avaiIabIe and supportive
And nurturing, and consummateIy there for me
I kept drawing you in and pushing you away
I remember how beautifuI it was to faII asIeep on your couch
And cry in front of you for the first time
You were the best pIatform from which to jump beyond myseIf
What was wrong with me
Dear Marcus, you rocked my worId
You had a charismatic way about you with the woman
And you got me seriousIy thinking about spirituaIity
And you wouIdn ’t Iet me get away with kicking my own ass
But I couId never reaIIy feeI reIaxed
And Iooked out for around you, though
And that stopped us from going any further than we did
And it ’s kinda too bad because we couId ’ve had much more fun
Dear Lou, we Iearned so much
I reaIize we won ’t be abIe to taIk for some time
And I understand that as I do you
The Iong distance thing was the hardest
And we did as weII as we couId
We were together during a very tumuItuous time in our Iives
I wiII aIways have your back and be curious about you
About your career, your whereabouts