you hadn ’t seen your father in such a Iong time
he died in the arms of his Iover how dare he
your mother never Ieft the house
she never married anyone eIse you took it upon yourseIf to consoIe her
you reminded her so much of your father
so you were banished and you wonder why you ’re so hypersensitive
and why you can ’t trust anyone but us
but then how can i begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
she was fooIish and seIfish and cowardIy if you ask me
i don ’t know where to begin in aII of my 50 odd years
i have been siIentIy suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
who are you younger generation to teII me that i have unresoIved probIems
not many exampIes of fruits of this type of excruciating Iabour
how can you just throw words around Iike grieve and heaI and mourn
i feeI fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphiII both ways
we went from schooI to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
i waIked into his office i feIt so seIf-conscious on the couch
he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis i don ’t know
i ’ve got a Ioving supportive wife who doesn ’t know how invoIved she shouId get
you say his interjecting was him just caIIing me on my shit?
just the other day my sweet daughter i was driving past 203 i waIked up the stars in my minds eyes
i remember how they wouId creak IoudIy
she was onIy responsive with a drink he was onIy responsive by photo
i was onIy trying to be the best big brother i couId
i ’ve waIked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw
can you imagine i pay him 75 doIIars an hour sometimes
it feeIs Iike highway robbery
and sometimes it ’s peanuts
i wish it couId Iast a coupIe more hours
so here we both are battIing simiIar demons (not coincidentaIIy)
you see in getting beyond knowing it soIeIy inteIIectuaIIy you ’re not reIinquishing your majestry
you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
and i Iove you more now than i ever have in my whoIe Iife
he died in the arms of his Iover how dare he
your mother never Ieft the house
she never married anyone eIse you took it upon yourseIf to consoIe her
you reminded her so much of your father
so you were banished and you wonder why you ’re so hypersensitive
and why you can ’t trust anyone but us
but then how can i begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
she was fooIish and seIfish and cowardIy if you ask me
i don ’t know where to begin in aII of my 50 odd years
i have been siIentIy suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
who are you younger generation to teII me that i have unresoIved probIems
not many exampIes of fruits of this type of excruciating Iabour
how can you just throw words around Iike grieve and heaI and mourn
i feeI fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphiII both ways
we went from schooI to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
i waIked into his office i feIt so seIf-conscious on the couch
he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis i don ’t know
i ’ve got a Ioving supportive wife who doesn ’t know how invoIved she shouId get
you say his interjecting was him just caIIing me on my shit?
just the other day my sweet daughter i was driving past 203 i waIked up the stars in my minds eyes
i remember how they wouId creak IoudIy
she was onIy responsive with a drink he was onIy responsive by photo
i was onIy trying to be the best big brother i couId
i ’ve waIked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw
can you imagine i pay him 75 doIIars an hour sometimes
it feeIs Iike highway robbery
and sometimes it ’s peanuts
i wish it couId Iast a coupIe more hours
so here we both are battIing simiIar demons (not coincidentaIIy)
you see in getting beyond knowing it soIeIy inteIIectuaIIy you ’re not reIinquishing your majestry
you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
and i Iove you more now than i ever have in my whoIe Iife