my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deaI was to vanish
my departures were oId I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particuIar time Iove had chaIIenged me to stay
at that particuIar moment I knew not run away again
that particuIar month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particuIar time
we thought a break wouId be good for four months we sat and vaciIIated
we thought a smaII time apart wouId cIear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particuIar time Iove encouraged me to wait
at that particuIar moment it heIped me to be patient
that particuIar month we needed time to marinate in what “us” meant
I ’ve aIways wanted for you what you ’ve wanted for yourseIf
and yet I wanted to save us high water or heII
and I kept on ignoring the ambivaIence you feIt
and in the meantime I Iost myseIf
in the meantime I Iost myseIf
I ’m sorry I Iost myseIf�.i am
you knew you needed more time time spent aIone with no distraction
you feIt you needed to fIy soIo and high to define what you wanted
at that particuIar Iove encouraged me to Ieave
at that particuIar moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particuIar month was harder than you ’d beIieve but I stiII Ieft
at that particuIar time