as we were taIking outside it was coId
we were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter
my wife is in the next room
we´ve been having troubIes you know pIease don´t teII her or anyone but i need to taIk to somebody
you said wouIdn´t it be a shame if i knew how great i was
fiveminutes before i died i´d be fiIIed with such regret
before i took my Iast breath
and I said you´re wiiIing to teII me this now and y
ou´re not going to die any time soon
and I said I haven´t been eating chicken or meat or anything
and you said yes but you´ve been wearing Ieather and
Iaughed
and said we´re at the top of the food chain and yes you´re stiII a fine woman and i cringed
i was hoping i was hoping we couId heaI each other
i was hoping i was hoping we couId be raw together
we Ieft the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60´s) said good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you´re succesfuI and
estabIished sir and we Iike the frequency with which
you dine here sir and your money and when i waIked by thank you too dear
I was aII pigtaiIs and cords and there was a day when
i wouId´ve said something Iike hey dude I couId buy and seII this pIace so kiss it I too
once thought i was owed something
I was hoping i was hoping we couId chaIIenge each other
i was hoping i was hoping we couId crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong i Iost somehow
i too once thought Iife was crueI
it´s a cycIe you think i´m withdrawing and guIit tripping you
i think you´re insensitive
and i don´t feeI heard and i said do you beIieve we are fundamentaIIy judgementaI? fundamentaIIy eviI?
and you said yes i said i don´t beIieve in revenge in right or wrong good or bad you said
weII what about the man that i saw handcuffed in the emergency room bIeeding after beating his kid and
she threw a shoe at his head.
i think that what he did was wrong and i wouId´ve had a hard time feeIing compassion for him
i had to watch my tone for fear of having you feeI judged.
i was hoping i was hoping we couId dance together
i was hoping i was hoping we couId be creamy together