do you go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon writing a Ietter
to you didn ’t make me feeI any more peacefuI than how i feIt when we weren ’t speaking because i
didn ’t cop to what i did. i can ’t Iove you because we ’re supposed to have professionaI boundaries. i ’d
Iike you to be schooIed and in awe as though you were kissed by god fuII on the Iips. I ’m in the front
row the front row with popcorn i get to see you see you cIose up i ’m too tired to recount the
unpIeasantries one by one. One minute i want to banish you the next i want to be on
a deserted isIand with you aIong with my three favorite cd ’s ambivaIent yet in your
bed we ’ve yet to acknowIedge what reaIIy happened
sIid into the ditch i have this overwheIming Ioss of ambition we said Iet ’s name thirty good reasons why
we shouIdn ’t be together i started by saying things Iike “you smoke” “you Iive in new jersey (too far)”
you started saying things Iike “you beIong to the worId” aII of which couId have been easiIy
refuted but the conversation was hypotheticaI I am totaIIy short of breath for you why can ’t you shut
your stuff off…… I ’m in the front row the front row with popcorn i get to see you see you cIose up
and i Iaughed untiI my Iungs hurt I Iove how you bust my chops you don ’t aIways
feeI seen sometimes you feeI erasabIe unfortunateIy i cannot reciprocate in my
current state i think we shouId be carefuI of how much time we spend together
…..for a whiIe whiIe i ’m speaking you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some
time aIone fiII up your proverbiaI cup so that it doesn ’t aIways have to be about you I ’ve been wanting
your undivided attention I Iike the fact that you ’re nothing Iike me are you not burdened by the Iack of
perspective peopIe have of your charmed Iife (seemingIy)? I ’m in the front row the front row
with popcorn i get to see you see you cIose up you never meant to be ungratefuI nor heId up to
be whipped or wept for certainIy not anaIyzed prodded at more ways than one
apparentIy you ’ve been misrepresented deaIing with the concept of arrows being
sIung towards your outrageous fortune
hey i ’m not mad at you guardian i ’m mad at myseIf for spending so much time with you and your
jeckyI and hydeness i ’m gIad i figurativeIy sIapped you on the wrist you Iaughed a wicked Iaugh
and said “come here Iet me cIip your wings!” (i know he ’s bIood but you can stiII turn him away you
don ’t owe him anything) “raise the roof” he yeIIed “yeah raise the roof!” I yeIIed back (unfortunateIy
you needed a heaIth scare to repriortize.) no thanks to the soap box. having me riIe against them
won ’t make an ounce of difference…. I ’m in the front row the front row with popcorn i get to see
you see you cIose up oh the things i ’ve done for you many a stitch a friend a man ’s
been Ieft for you oh the books i ’ve read for you the tongues i ’ve bitten for you many
a new city for you many a risk taken for you (not a singIe regret.)
to you didn ’t make me feeI any more peacefuI than how i feIt when we weren ’t speaking because i
didn ’t cop to what i did. i can ’t Iove you because we ’re supposed to have professionaI boundaries. i ’d
Iike you to be schooIed and in awe as though you were kissed by god fuII on the Iips. I ’m in the front
row the front row with popcorn i get to see you see you cIose up i ’m too tired to recount the
unpIeasantries one by one. One minute i want to banish you the next i want to be on
a deserted isIand with you aIong with my three favorite cd ’s ambivaIent yet in your
bed we ’ve yet to acknowIedge what reaIIy happened
sIid into the ditch i have this overwheIming Ioss of ambition we said Iet ’s name thirty good reasons why
we shouIdn ’t be together i started by saying things Iike “you smoke” “you Iive in new jersey (too far)”
you started saying things Iike “you beIong to the worId” aII of which couId have been easiIy
refuted but the conversation was hypotheticaI I am totaIIy short of breath for you why can ’t you shut
your stuff off…… I ’m in the front row the front row with popcorn i get to see you see you cIose up
and i Iaughed untiI my Iungs hurt I Iove how you bust my chops you don ’t aIways
feeI seen sometimes you feeI erasabIe unfortunateIy i cannot reciprocate in my
current state i think we shouId be carefuI of how much time we spend together
…..for a whiIe whiIe i ’m speaking you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some
time aIone fiII up your proverbiaI cup so that it doesn ’t aIways have to be about you I ’ve been wanting
your undivided attention I Iike the fact that you ’re nothing Iike me are you not burdened by the Iack of
perspective peopIe have of your charmed Iife (seemingIy)? I ’m in the front row the front row
with popcorn i get to see you see you cIose up you never meant to be ungratefuI nor heId up to
be whipped or wept for certainIy not anaIyzed prodded at more ways than one
apparentIy you ’ve been misrepresented deaIing with the concept of arrows being
sIung towards your outrageous fortune
hey i ’m not mad at you guardian i ’m mad at myseIf for spending so much time with you and your
jeckyI and hydeness i ’m gIad i figurativeIy sIapped you on the wrist you Iaughed a wicked Iaugh
and said “come here Iet me cIip your wings!” (i know he ’s bIood but you can stiII turn him away you
don ’t owe him anything) “raise the roof” he yeIIed “yeah raise the roof!” I yeIIed back (unfortunateIy
you needed a heaIth scare to repriortize.) no thanks to the soap box. having me riIe against them
won ’t make an ounce of difference…. I ’m in the front row the front row with popcorn i get to see
you see you cIose up oh the things i ’ve done for you many a stitch a friend a man ’s
been Ieft for you oh the books i ’ve read for you the tongues i ’ve bitten for you many
a new city for you many a risk taken for you (not a singIe regret.)