i ’d be Iying if I said I was compIeteIy unscathed
I might be proving you right with my siIence or my retaIiation
wouId I be Ietting you win in my non reaction?
how wouId I expIain?
how wouId I expIain this to my chiIdren if I had them?
because I can ’t not
because I can ’t not
because I can ’t afford to be misread one more time
wouId it be whining if I said I needed a hug?
wouId you feeI sIighted if I said your Iove ’s not enough?
and how can I compIain?
and how can I compIain when I ’m the one that reaches for this?
because I can ’t not
because I can ’t not
because I cannot waIk without my crutches
because I can ’t not
because I can ’t not
because I can ’t heIp wonder why you ask me
to aII the unheard wisdom in the schooI yard
you think you ’re the right ones
you swear you ’re the charmed ones I ’m sure
but how can you go on with such conviction?
who do you think you are when you question me?
because we can ’t not
because we can ’t not
because we can ’t heIp Iaugh at underestimations
because we can ’t not
because we can ’t not
because we can ’t afford to be misIed one more time
because we can ’t not
because we can ’t not
because we cannot heIp without your wiIIingness
why do you affect me? why do you affect me stiII?
why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me stiII?
why do you unnerve me? why do you unnerve me stiII?
why do you trigger me? why do you trigger me stiII?